And On We Blindly Stumble! 3.4

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No More Pencils, No More
Books, No More Teachers' Dirty Looks!!

WW00000000TTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Glory Be!! done with tests, the semester is over!
My Brain can rest and recouperate now.
I think I did fairly well, knowing I actually applied myself.
I'm so happy I ended the semester without going insane or going back to the hospital.
Now I am going to find something to eat.

I am sure everyone has heard of the video of Nick Berg recently in Iraq, this has sent shockwaves and sorrow through the west AND the east. Through my own intel sources I recieved a copy of the alleged beheading and a warning of the extreme graphic content of the content. After several minutes I decided to watch it... the content was awful and extremely nerve shaking, I stopped it midway, too sick to see anymore, think of it as a butchering of sheep, with a human voice screaming and writhing in pain. As with other viewers who have expressed their sorrow for viewing it, I am telling anyone who views this video the content is EXTREMELY GRAPHIC, no one should be allowed to view or even possess over grounds of moral responsibility not only to the victim, but to the familiy members and friends who have had the sadness to loose a loved one.

Although its a clear case of in-humane abomination of one being against another. Several things regarding the video has striken me to be odd, through the video there are several dissimilarities in it.
1. During which the speaker during the first minutes of the video, his lip actions underneath the mask and the spoken audio do not match. This could be remedied by the fact that he is wearing a mask and that the video is of very poor quality.

2. By the time the leader of the group stops talking to where he starts with his act, there is a 11 hour gap between the sequences as indicated by the timestamp on the video version I have recieved. What happened during these 11 hours? Mr Berg goes from sitting on the floor one second to laying on his side.

3. During the scene which he is being cut the blood does not seem to splatter, even when the assailant performs the action the blood merely driips from the ever increasing wound. Surely a major blood artery or something of the sorts would have been severed and blood would have been performing what it usually does.
(Note: I stopped this several seconds into it and I was not able to view the rest of it. But has been confirmed by the source I recieved the video from and several others who had the misfortune of viewing this video.)

Also this has been widely dispersed by the media, but he has had several run-ins not only with the Iraqi Constabulary but U.S. Military Police and Reguar Army Units. Also he has been investigated by the FBI. What exactly was he doing in Iraq that led to his investigation and recent arrests?
With these new questions that only lead to more questions not only to the people, but also to the intell agencies of the US. Although this was a tragedy and viewed in the eyes of Americans and Arabs as an abomination, is there other facts that are not being disclosed?
Only time will tell and as facts continue to trickle down the grapevine I cannot say as to if any of this remains true or if this information play any relevant role in this incident.

GLORY BE!!! I am almost done with finals, the weeks of anticipation, studying, blood, tears and ulcers have almost come to an end! I for once am resting better now that this is almost done, I am really anticipating the summer. A chance for me to recouperate earn some money and set some things straight. I want to go home in time for graduation, I am not sure if I really can, but after my family tried to see me I really want to go home, even if its for acouple of days. I would like that. I am hoping I would get home in time for Gallup's graduation. I will just have to wait and see.

Well finals are awaiting me just over the hill, although I feel prepared, I still dont know. I will kust have to wait and see how everything goes.Right now I just have this empty feeling, the feeling of lonliness. I dont know what else to say right now. Oh well.

Well my mom and brothers never came up, although i was minorly upset I quickly got over it by the fact that my mom could now rest and relax for a weekend instead of getting lost in El Paso with a restless/hungry 2 year old (NEVER a good combination!) and an even more annoyed and restless 20 year old who ends up picking on the two year old, all the while my mom is trying to find her way to the Interstate while driving into the sun. What a frightening scenario. But i guess it was all right. She said she may be able to come down in two weeks, but I told her whenever you are comfortable is fine, I know money is tight and time cant be spared, but i think a day of being out fo gallup and shopping/browsing will be good for her, even if i have to stay behind and look after the kids, just as long as she buys us groceries, I (almost) got jack. I wanted to do something similar for her for this weekend, I would take the kids while she went to the casino in Sunland Park, could take Chris to the playground, maybe take him to the community pool, while my brother played computer games or bring his xbox so he could hook up and play PSO w/o dial up. Possibly next time, I also want to take them to White Sands, let them roam, so many things, so little time, plus they want to know when I will be coming back. Hopefully I will be able to see them at the end of the month. I miss them!

Damn DSL router. Piece of crap keeps flaking out on me. This is the 2nd time this week the thing crapped out on me. Although I am actually learning a thing or two about the fussiness of the line, I dont think its supposed to give me a gallstone everytime the line hiccups. Is it supposed to do this? Several factors that may contribute may be to the condition of the lines found in our apartment, the manuf of my DSL router/hub, and me willingness to influience the thing physically, whether it be thrown across the room or lightly stomped on. But either way this thing is still going. And tonite is the first time i did not call Quest for help, although the ONLY time I call is to check if there is a problem with the fibre from Albuquerque, the local hardware or lines, or worse, I could be cut off! I dont know why getting cut off is such a big deal, i guess i have gotten soft from the days of 28 kbps dial up (shudder) or the painfully shoddy network our old high school used to have, NMSU was not so bad, except that their constant closing of ports had me trying to find open ports for WinMX. But right now its back so I have no quarrel with Qwest or me router, if/when it works, im happy.

Happy Mother's Day!