And On We Blindly Stumble! 3.4

Today passed without incident, was a normally dull day. This is one of those days in which I was still living on campus, there was almost something to do almost everyday, whether it was checking out a campus event or just watching tv, ro even visiting my roomates friends. But I am slowly getting used to it. Especially the evenings it gets boring, dont know what else to do but sit in front of my PC, I would like to get started on my next video, but i dont know, i know it may turn out to be crap so why try, but I may do it anyways. EVangelion and Clint Mansell & The Kronos Quartet just seem to mix. Yeah, I am going to try it now.

Well its been a long time, I finally decided to write here in this thing. I am comfy im my apartment, apart from the sparce furnature, needing a desk, dresser and couch for the living room and dining table we have settled in and pretty much call this my home away from home now. There has not been much to talk about since December: friend of my roomate got married much to our amazement, and also I was let go at my old job at the lab. I really liked it there and I will miss it, the coworkers, the atmosphere and humor. Lot of things happened that have changed me in more ways than I am letting on to most people, friends are disapearing, people I once could trust have become obnoxious, as what happened to most people I know. Most of all besides all these big changes in people around me I believe one thing that has affected me drastically is the loss of just one person, a very dear friend of three years, someone who has opened my eyes to the world and showed me the finer things of life, now all that remains is sadness. I constantly think of her, it hurts but it also hurts when i let go. Is this how its supposed to feel? Is this void in me normal? I guess its normal for friends to part ways but... oh well, its not like i was ever cared for in the first place, that anybody ever gave a rat's ass for me, i dont have true friends anymore. Just ghosts.